Lying in bed last night distracted from sleep by gallons of sweat pouring off my body I found myself wondering just why the hell the Coincidence Coordinators seem to be throwing so many obstacles in front of me and the cats getting the hell out of here, one way or another. It just oughtn’t be this difficult if I’m not chasing a wrong path, or am avoiding one I ought to be chasing.
I take this stuff seriously [and honestly don't give a damn whether anyone else believes it's insane for me to do so]. Seems clear to me in moments of insight the function the cats serve in my life is that of an anchor. The weight of my contracts with them keep me from taking the easy way out and living in a tent, a cave, somewhere I’d rather be. Somewhere the humidity’s not so high and the heat’s more bearable.
On the other hand, I’m not certain I’d find life worth living at all without these damned cats. That’s another feature of my life a lot of people might find insane, and another feature of it I don’t need to explain, even to myself. It’s good enough just riding the satisfaction I get sharing my life with them without demanding sanity out of it.
I think I’d do just fine without them if they exited my life without my having violated my contracts with them. But violating the contracts as a means to drive my life somewhere I’d rather be would cut just about everything I value in myself off at the knees.
Of course, there’s this damned project over there dancing around in the wings waving its arms around demanding a particular uncertainty principle be dismantled, provided the Coincidence Coordinators continue providing the means to pursue it. Which, thus far, they’ve continued to do.
So where’s the urgency in it all, thinks I? Where’s the source of the fire I’m building under myself to provide a driving ‘need’ to be in a tent or under a bridge?
Physical discomfort, thinks I, must be a big piece of it. Cripes, I think of myself as immune to allowing that to influence my life, but there it is.
And of course, I allowed a number of expectations to creep into my mind, demands on a future I’ve no reason at all to believe will come to pass. Things involving smelling pinon burning beside a stream, looking at rocks through a magnifier.
Enough of all that was still lingering in my mind this morning to get me asking the I Ching about it. He ain’t always all that helpful, but “any port in a storm,” eh?
Consultation on Wednesday, July 25, 2012 at 8:04 AM.
Present: Hexagram 61 Centering in Truth
Question: What about just blowing it off and going to live in a cave or under a bridge somewhere?
Truth involves establishing an aware relationship between your inner core and the circumstances in your life. Centering in truth involves the ability to perceive a fundamental wisdom, reflected within yourself – and also in others.
Truth is transformed into power when you disperse all prejudice and make yourself receptive to the world as it really is. This power can be a remarkable force indeed – yet is rarer than generally imagined. It can be maintained only by cultivating a genuine openness to things as they are – a willingness to see, rather than merely look.
Whenever your inner life is clouded, your influence in the world is under a shadow. If you are fearful, you will be attacked; if you cloak genuine mysteries in dogma, opportunities for new insight will be lost. If you vacillate in upholding your principles, you will be tested. Yet, when you are firm and strong, the power of truth can break through even the most stubborn minds.
In any debate, the power to perceive the truth in the other side’s argument is essential to achieving success. It is possible to influence even the most difficult people, or improve the most difficult circumstance, through the power of universal truth – for truth is something to which all things naturally respond. Get in touch with that part of yourself that is aware of this universal force of truth. Cultivate this inner resource, and you will become adept at using it to bind others to a common purpose.
The condition of things in the present is fairly stable. There are no specific changes indicated right now.
Guess I’d better dig out John Richard Lynn and read the judgements on Hexagram 61. Otherwise I might get thinking it matters whether I’m crazy.