This morning there was a newspaper in my yard. I don’t subscribe to newspapers, but I figured since it was there, and since I haven’t seen or heard any news for a while, maybe it was the coincidence coordinators had something I was supposed to see, or maybe it was Dancing Lessons From God, which I try to keep alert for.
Front page was full of some cop in Tijeras got himself dead by some parolee. Cops doing a major man-hunt, roughed up some kid who looked like the suspect and drove a similar car…. warned him he’d be well advised not to drive the car until the guy is caught, hinting dark possibilities resulting from mistaken identity.
Hokay. Every day there’s a homicide or three in Albuquerque… several more in the rest of New Mexico. A little over a year ago a good friend of mine was murdered, and when it wasn’t obvious who did it they said, ho-hum. Forgot about it.
So, where’s the difference here? People getting killed all over the place and nobody gets more than a sigh from the police. But a man who happened to volunteer to be a soldier for the bureaucracy knowing his life might occasionally be risked and we get a Chinese Firedrill.
Every time.
Why is the life of a police officer worth more than the life of an 80 year old man they accidently shot when they were kicking down the door to the house next door and he came out with a flashlight to see what was happening? Ho hum. Mistaken identity.
Why is it worth more than a kid, a mother, anybody?
We all know why.
When you own the system some people are just more equal than others. Orwell said it first.
Anyway, the big news of the day in New Mexico is some cop got killed in Tijeras. Ho hum.
You newswatchers and readers hereabouts brace yourselves for a couple of weeks hearing about how frequently he brushed his teeth and what color the brush was.
Jack was on a Yahoo group for chicken lovers and posted these entries for that group:
Something got one of the guineas out of the treetops last night, nothing left but a pile of feathers. At twilight [dawn] I went out to the chicken house and smelled a skunk, came in and got a shotgun and the spotlight, found it out under where the guineas sleep in the trees, shot it but the guinea feathers were off west of there some distance. I don’t think it was a skunk got him. I was walking around when it got light enough to see and about 12-15 grown big hawgs crossed west to east in the clearing between here and the Honig fence line. I’d been hearing them but rejecting what my ears were telling me.
For some reason the skunk had dug a lot in the garden area but didn’t dig under the chicken house wall.
I gotta get music going. No ifs buts nor maybes.
Jack
March 15
My old amplifier went out for a couple of weeks and it was silent around here for the first time in 18 months or so, though for the first year it was only Gregorian chants and Carlos Nakai flute, which didn’t seem to have a universal repellent side for predators.
But within a few days after the amp died nature descended like locusts around here. The deer started to think the nighttime chicken pen was a good source of grain, an owl or something else picked off a guinea out of the trees and a skunk arrived to try out the surroundings for regular visits. Coyotes were all directions and close enough so’s we’d consult in pre-dawn howls and yips about whether I was going to put up with them.
Even though the neighboring ranch has hired professional animal killers to come out by helicopter a couple of times and shoot up the hogs and other predators they could see, the injured ones making their way to die in the grader-ditches, a good many of them, yesterday or day before I saw the biggest herd of wild hawgs I’ve ever seen, a dozen or 15, all full grown, crossing the clearing 100 yards to the north. I prioritized getting the music rolling again. Come dawn I’ll see if it made a difference.
Yesterday night or the night before when I killed that skunk, even though I asked myself three distinct times and looked more closely before I fired, whether that could be my old cat Hydrox and clearly saw it wasn’t, once I’d fired I immediately convinced myself it was him I’d shot and didn’t have whatever it takes to go look until I saw him sometime after daybreak.
I’ve never been weak on the insanity ration, but I think it might be getting worse.
I don’t usually open spam emails, but something about that subject line’s a winner.
All over America, I imagine, men glanced at that heading, did a double take, just as I did, and clicked it open.
Reached for their cell-phones.
Squinted.
Jack
I found this poem in Jack’s papers. It was typed, so probably a final draft, but wasn’t included in Poems of the New Old West. –Jeanne
In chilling heat of steel-gray afternoons
I footprint mud beside metallic waters;
Thoughtless prayers of gratitude
For primrose blemishes
That pock the face of dying winter.
Gunmetal night explodes
In chalkboard hieroglyphs
Of ballistic trajectories.
Drowning cold kaleidoscope;
My shield…defend! Repel
Just once again
This splinter of
Eternal chaos.
Neighbor Wes tells me those rains brought us up to our yearly average (5 inches) moisture in three nights. Looks as though more’s on the way.
I spent a lot of yesterday out digging silt out around the house, ditching, berming, putting up obstructions to help keep the water on the property and allow it to soak in. Trying to keep it from widening and deepening the arroyos it cut in the driveway and through the carport.
Trying to slow it down, get it to drop some of that silt-loading here, instead of carrying it off onto Wes, down into the Rio Grande, over to Texas where they don’t need it.
Meanwhile, while I was working, a bald eagle landed in the tree behind Wes’s house.
Yeah, a sure enough bald eagle, right there in the treetop, me with four cats running around the yard.
I gave it a word of metaphysical advice:
“You,” says I, “There ain’t no America no more. To me you’re no better than a buzzard. You dip down here trying to snag one of these felines, I’m going to whack you with this shovel.”
Old Jules, what’s something unique and strange that makes you, you?
I’m a hermit getting along towards 70 years old living in the middle of nowhere in Texas. I talk to my large flock of free ranging chickens and my four cats. I don’t listen to the radio, don’t have a television, and I once almost went an entire presidential term without knowing who was prez. I became a private pilot by buying an airplane, hiring an instructor, firing him when I got sick of his antics and soloing myself. I had more than 500 hours logged before I ever applied to take an FAA test ride and get a license.
Old Jules are you a loner? If so, why did you decide to live this way? Are you ever mistreated and/or rejected by your family and neighbors who think loners are odd people?
I’m a hermit. I might be considered by others to be a loner, though I’m not. I’m a sociable person when I’m around sufficiently few people.
I’ve been out of touch with my family, some members for a decade, others for several decades. I heard recently my 90 year old mother died, but felt nothing when I heard it. I don’t know whether my dad’s alive or not. I called him up on the phone 15 years ago [first contact in 20 years] to wish him a happy Father’s Day and he hung up on me, which was okay by me.
I doubt people think I’m odd, though I do think they are. I need to go at least several days, sometimes a month, between seeing other people just to keep my head on straight.
Old Jules do you believe in animal rights?
I think I might believe in animal rights, but I’m not familiar enough with what’s going on in the world to know.
I’ve never bothered to think it through, but as a practical matter, I kill anything of any species that threatens my cats and my chickens, including the occasional feral domestic cat, and pretty much leave everything else alone. When I have to kill a coyote, coon, or something else I always chop it up and feed it to the chickens. I’ve never yet had occasion to put a human being into the mix to test my resolve.
I do occasionally eat meat when I can afford to buy it, and if I went a longish while not being able to afford it I’d probably kill one of these deer I’m forever running off with a slingshot to keep them out of my chicken feed.
Without trying to nail all this down into a philosophy it seems to me it represents a behavioral code. I’m not sure if it’s accurate to call myself a supporter of the current animal rights philosophy.
Old Jules, has your life been what you expected? If not, in the end does it really matter?
I don’t believe I could have ever imagined much of it ahead of time, but it’s a smile and it’s been a constant adventure. When people talk about being bored I file it away as something to look into next lifetime to see if it’s as interesting as not being bored.
I don’t believe anything about this lifetime is going to end unless I manage to figure out how to do it right so’s I don’t get into the same set of challenges next time around. The prospect gives me a strong motive.
Part 2: To Protect and Defend – “Freeze scumball!”
Okay, here’s a similar case, only backward:
A man living in the woods. Might have poached a deer, or a bobcat.
Two protectors and defenders with time on their hands visit him and one makes a fatal mistake. Officer pulls a gun on a man who’s not in the mood for it:
When the dust settledthe man without a badge served 22 years in the slammer. No talk of reducing this one.
Claude Dallas
(Ian Tyson, Tom Russell, 1986.)
In a land the Spanish once had
Called the Northern Mystery,
Where rivers run and disappear
And the Mustang still lives free,
By the Devil’s wash and the coyote hole
In the wild Owyee Range,
Somewhere in the sage tonight
The wind calls out his name.
Aye, aye, aye.
Come gather round me, buckaroos,
And the story I will tell:
The fugitive Claude Dallas
Who just broke out jail.
You might think this tale is history
From before the West was won,
But the events that I’ll describe took place
In nineteen-eighty-one.
He was born out in Virginia,
Left home when school was through.
In the deserts of Nevada,
He became a buckaroo.
He learned the ways of cattle.
He learned to sit a horse.
He always packed a pistol
And he practiced deadly force.
Then Claude he became a trapper.
He dreamed of the bygone days.
He studied bobcat logic
In the wild and silent ways,
In the bloody runs near paradise,
In the monitors down south,
Trapping cats and coyotes,
Living hand and mouth.
Aye, aye, aye.
Then Claude took to living all alone
Out many miles from town.
A friend, Jim Stevens, brought supplies
And he stayed to hang around.
That day two wardens, Pogue and Elms,
Drove in to check Claude out.
They were seeking violations
And to see what Claude’s about.
Now Claude had hung some venison,
Had a bobcat pelt or two.
Pogue claimed they were out of season.
He says, “Dallas, you’re all through.”
But Dallas would not leave his camp.
He refused to go to town.
As the wind howled through the bull camp,
They stared each other down.
It’s hard to say what happened next.
Perhaps we’ll never know.
They were going to take Claude in to jail,
And he’d vowed he’d never go.
Jim Stevens heard the gunfire,
And when he turned around,
Bill Pogue was fallin’ backwards.
Conley Elms, he fell face-down.
Aye, aye, aye.
Jim Stevens walked on over.
There was a gun near Bill Pogue’s hand.
It’s hard to say who’d drawn his first,
But Claude had made his stand.
Claude said, “I’m justified, Jim.
They were going to cut me down.
A man’s got a right to hang some meat
When he’s livin’ this far from town.”
It took eighteen men and fifteen months
To finally run Claude down.
In the sage outside of paradise,
They drove him to the ground.
Convicted up in Idaho,
Manslaughter by decree,
Thirty years at maximum,
But soon Claude would break free.
There’s two sides to this story.
There may be no right or wrong.
The lawman and the renegade
Have graced a thousand songs.
So the story is an old one.
Conclusion’s hard to draw.
But Claude’s out in the sage tonight.
He may be the last outlaw.
Aye, aye, aye.
Idaho outlaw Claude Dallas freed from jail
BOISE (AP) — Idaho’s most infamous outlaw, Claude Dallas, was released from prison Sunday morning after serving 22 years for the slayings of two state officers in 1981.
Dallas, 54, gained notoriety as both a callous criminal and a modern-day mountain man at odds with the government. He was released Sunday after his 30-year term was cut by eight years for good behavior.
Dallas wore a light blue shirt, prison-issue jeans and a denim jacket as he walked out of the Idaho Correctional Institution in Orofino at 4:55 a.m., said Teresa Jones, an Idaho Department of Correction spokeswoman.
“He doesn’t want to talk to the media or make a big deal out of his release,” said Kevin Kempf, the prison warden. “He just wants to go live his life.”
Dallas was picked up by a family member. He was convicted of manslaughter in 1982 for the shooting deaths of Conley Elms and Bill Pogue, officers for the Idaho Department of Fish and Game who were investigating reports of bobcat poaching by Dallas in remote southeast Idaho.
Pogue, who had drawn his own weapon, was hit first with a shot from Dallas’ handgun. Dallas then shot Elms two times in the chest before using a rifle to fire one round into each man’s head.
The case made national headlines and turned Dallas into an anti-government folk hero for some — a reputation only heightened by a 1986 jailbreak. Dallas hid for nearly a year before he was caught and sent back to prison. He was charged in the escape, but acquitted by a jury after he testified he had to break out because prison guards threatened his life.
If a police officer stops you for a minor violation and points a gun at you, do you:
Think he’s a highly trained professional and he’s only protecting you and defending you?
0
Wonder if he’s ever killed anyone else in the line of duty and liked the feeling?
1
Think he might shoot you because you sassed him? (See Woods, above)
1
Joke and clown around to lower the tension? (Not recommended)
0
Think he might shoot you because he’s having a bad day and knows he can get by with it?
2
Think he might shoot you by accident? (Happens too frequently to make the front page)
1
Wonder whether the piece is ‘on safety’? ( It ain’t.)
0
Wonder why they don’t drug-test these guys now and then? (They don’t)
1
Wonder whether he’ll plant evidence in your vehicle? (If you sassed him and he doesn’t shoot you)
0
Breathe deeply and be grateful you live in America and you’re protected from criminals?
Part 1 –To Protect and Defend – “Freeze scumball!”
The first is about a Park Ranger who had an argument with a 58 year old unarmed man wearing sandals, shorts and no shirt. The crime was an unpaid $14 park fee. The criminal tried to run away from him, though his vehicle remained parked right where the Ranger was standing.
No problemo? Put a citation on the car and go on to other things?
Nope.
The only solution’s to shoot the running man. He’d smarted off and sassed a badge. Plugged him twice in the back. Kilt him spang daid with the first shot. Second one was to make sure.
Here’s how the Criminal Justice system’s dealing with this protector and defender:
Begins as Second Degree Homicide.
Reduced to Voluntary Man-Slaughter.
Reduced to Involuntary Man-Slaughter.
Hang on a bit and they’ll give him a pay raise and a Police Association Man of the Year Award.
Family: Ranger shot man in the back at Elephant Butte
ELEPHANT BUTTE STATE PARK, N.M. (AP) – The family of a man who was fatally shot by a State Parks officer at Elephant Butte State Park allege the shots were fired into the man’s back.
That according to a copyright story in today’s Albuquerque Journal. (March, 2006)
Fifty-eight-year-old Bruce Teschner was killed August 23rd during a confrontation with State Parks Officer Clyde Woods. Authorities say Woods shot Teschner after he refused to pay a 14-dollar-a-night camping fee and refused to leave the park. Authorities say Woods apparently was unarmed.
An affidavit says Woods told the belligerent Teschner that he would be arrested and got Teschner prone on the ground. But Teschner did not comply, got up and moved away with his hands apparently in his pockets.
TRUTH OR CONSEQUENCES, N.M. (AP) – A State Parks officer who fatally shot a man following a dispute over a camping fee at Elephant Butte State Park is facing a second-degree murder charge.
State police say Clyde Woods turned himself in Monday after an arrest warrant was issued. He’s being held at the Sierra County jail on a $100,000 bond.
Woods shot 58-year-old Bruce Teschner on August 23rd during a confrontation in which Teschner had refused to pay a $14-a-night camping fee and refused to leave the park.
State Parks director Dave Simon says criminal charges constitute an extremely serious situation and the division is following the matter closely.
Simon says Woods’ law enforcement powers have been suspended and he remains on paid leave until the division can review the findings of a state police investigation and conduct its own review.
TRUTH OR CONSEQUENCES, N.M. (AP) – The case of a state parks ranger who fatally shot a man in a dispute over a camping fee at Elephant Butte State Park will be heard in state district court.
A Sierra County magistrate bound the case over to district court during a preliminary hearing Wednesday.
The judge also reduced the charge against Clyde Woods to involuntary manslaughter. Woods was initially charged with second-degree murder.
Woods shot Bruce Teschner on August 23rd during a confrontation in which Teschner refused to pay a $14-a-night camping fee and refused to leave the park.
According to an affidavit, Woods told the belligerent Teschner that he would be arrested and got Teschner prone on the ground. But the man did not comply, got up and moved away with his hands apparently in his pockets.
Woods was placed on paid leave following the shooting.
Summary:
If you’re going to deliberately kill someone you need to be wearing a badge.
If someone with a badge points a gun at you you’d best let him shoot you or you’ll go to jail.
You can’t make an omelette without breaking some eggs.
“Give me a 750 word
Masterpiece
Describing
How crushed ice
Machines
Can be used
On construction sites
To slow the cooling
And surface cracking
Of freshly poured
Cement.
Make it lively
Make it dance
I want it yesterday
We’ll argue
Prices
Three months from now
When you see the check.”
“Give me 2000 words
To titillate
Give me that whorehouse
That famous Chicken Ranch
In La Grange, Texas.
I want pockets picked
I want gonorrhea
I want luscious bitches
And hints of corruption
Deep in Texas
Law enforcement
I want it yesterday
We’ll argue
Prices
Three months from now
When you see the check.”
“I want 2000 words
Fiction
Something about
Beautiful Vietcong bitches
Luring innocent GIs
To bed and death
In some stinking thatched hut
With pigs squealing outside
I want to see her despair
Her soul searching
As she discovers she loves him
I want a hint of non-fiction.
We’ll argue
Prices
Three months from now
When you see the check.”
“I want a poem
About how you feel
When your lover
Jilts you
In favor of someone
Of his own sex
And begins
Taking hormones.
I want the word
Encyclopedia
Used in every
Third line.
No pay
You just have
The pleasure
And satisfaction
Of doing what I
Told you to.
To help you
Get used to the feel
Of being a writer”
From Poems of the New Old West, Jack Purcell, copyright 2002
Jack wrote this in November, 2005. I guess his background in history and public health made him a prophet of sorts. ~Jeanne
Morning blogsters:
Having some difficulties getting the juices flowing this morning. When I don’t get up at 5 am, when I allow myself to lie there and savor how good it is inside that cocoon of blankets, screws up my entire day.
I was down in Rio Rancho at the food store the other day, saw a long line of people waiting to get flu shots. Seems there’s a new strain out there to be scared silly about gonna kill us all if we don’t get shots.
Maybe. I suppose it might happen someday, probably will.
1918 made a big impression on the world how fast and unexpected a virus can move to bunch up the time-span of folks for folks dying all close together, instead of spreading it out and letting them die scattered across the calendar.
People remember 1918… the graveyards remind them. That line of graves out there with so many 1918, 19, dates surrounded by other times just sort of shotgunned in.
But what people don’t remember is the Swine Flu scare of 1976.
Good year, that one. It was the year we all didn’t die of swine flu whether we had inoculations, or didn’t. It was a year a lot like this one, but my first year in public health. Lines a mile long for shots, no amount of money and human energy too great to expend saving us all from dying of the Y2K of the viral set.
The fact they’re talking aloud of such things at the Center for Disease Control says a lot about who’s left over there at CDC. The ones who remember the black eye public health took from the Swine Flu scare would never have allowed it. I have to conclude they’ve all retired and there a lot of young lions now watching for micro-organisms to be afraid of and make announcements about for possible budget increases.
Looking for a hole in the pandemic of panic-hunger they can slip an announcement into and see it grow and blossom.
Which is fine if someone who didn’t get shots dies.
And it’s Y2K, if it doesn’t.
When the real, bullgoose bug comes storming out of Africa or Asia nobody’s going to listen. But 1918, reaches out here into 2005 and testifies on oath that it can happen and probably will.
I’m guessing this ain’t it. The bug has killed maybe 60-70 people and has been around long enough already to get people scared.
Mr. Bad News ain’t gonna come down the pike thataway. He’s going to come balling down the freeway leaving a trail of hair, teeth and eyeballs behind him in his wake and nothing but clear open highway ahead, except people scurrying around ducking and dodging trying to get out of the way.
Likely he’ll be transmitted airborne, long enough incubation time so’s a person throws him off a long while before the victims even know they’re sick. So you get everyone infected well before the first ones begin to get the blind staggers.
Second cup of coffee here and I still don’t have my mind out of the cage… still can’t feel any enthusiasm for dragging up those spreadsheets and trying to figure out where those numbers came from last night, for trying to reconstruct their route and itinerary.
Building on the idea beginning on the last blog entry, here’s another one I’d consider sending:
To be delivered January 1, 2002.
“Hi Guy,
“This is me again, talking to you from 2006.
“You are in for a lot of strange experiences over the next few years, and some profoundly difficult times. You’re going to do a lot of things you’ve never dreamed of doing, just to get by month-to-month.
“I can tell you now:
“Don’t waste your time trying to get teaching jobs, any job where you can take advantage of your education and job history. Save yourself a lot of energy and discouragement.
“That part of you is gone. They don’t want any white male in his late 50s, no matter what he might have done in the past. You are going to have to become really good at some unconventional approaches to survival to just squeeze by without going to live under a bridge somewhere.
“All that Y2K credit history and the mistooken belief the IRS would collapse is catching up with you.
“You’ve always succeeded in everything you did. Now you’re basing your decisions on that history, but you’re failing to comprehend that everything’s changed. Don’t waste your life in all those months of self-doubt and guilt, judging yourself against a set of standards and assumptions you learned from Grand-dad and you’ve always tried to live by.
“Those are dead.
“You are still you. You’re still strong, and you still have a million things to be grateful for. What those human resources departments believe is meaningless, doesn’t say a thing about whom and what you are because they reject you.
“You’ve always relied on yourself and you now have to start doing it again in ways you never thought possible. You are about to have to become a person living in the shadows, off the government paperwork, inside the underground economy. The sooner you understand there’s no place for you in the ordinary job market the better off you’ll be.
Old Deano, over in Belen’s going to try to talk you into learning blackjack. You’ll want to shrug and resist. My advice to you, is ponder it. Don’t resist so hard, but don’t believe anything he, nor anyone else tells you about the nuts and bolts of playing it until you study it all and think it through. What’s said by the experts is largely BS.
There’s a meth cook named Dan who’s about to drop into your life and offer to take you on as a bodyguard. I’m not going to suggest you don’t do it, but I’m going to tell you without reservation that meth cooks and meth users are on a growth path that’s too far from yours to allow you to remain around them long. Do what you have to do, but don’t even for a minute believe Dan, nor any of the rest of them can be trusted. When things begin to go sour cut it off fast and clean.
“You, my friend, are entering a brave new world. Savor every minute of it. Maybe I’ll send you an email occasionally to hint you along.
“Hang in there amigo. You can do it.
“Yourself 10,000 blackjack hands into the future,”
74 years old, a resident of Leavenworth, KS, in an apartment located on the VA campus. Partnered with a black shorthaired cat named Mister Midnight. (1943-2020)
Since April, 2020, this blog is maintained by Jeanne Kasten (See "About" page for further information).
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I’m sharing it with you because there’s almost no likelihood you’ll believe it. This lunatic asylum I call my life has so many unexpected twists and turns I won’t even try to guess where it’s going. I’d suggest you try to find some laughs here. You won’t find wisdom. Good luck.